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Kinda sick of hearing people say how they wanna be a kid again.

    "Don´t you wish you could go back to being a kid again and be soooo carefree all the time? Never have to cook or clean or worry about anything - you could just watch cartoons and relax!"

    Honestly, this just sounds like someone bragging about how great their childhood was, cuz I didn´t really get to experience this -\_\_- My mother is blind and my dad was an abusive alcoholic so I didn´t get to experience the "innocent joy" of childhood that so many people brag about.

    I was born with a hole in my lung and had doctor´s tell my parents to "give up on me" for the first few years of my life because they genuinely didn´t think I´d survive. I had such a hard time breathing all they way up until I was a teenager.

    My mum lost her vision when I was very young and you can probably imagine all the struggles that come with having a disabled parent. No, my mum couldn´t "pick me up from soccer practice". if I wanted to do extra activities, I had to figure out how to get there myself. I remember having to ride my bike to the grocery store to pick up milk when I was only eight, completely by myself because mum couldn´t drive or ride a bike with me.

    My dad was a violent drunk for most of my life. He doesn´t drink anymore thankfully and is much healthier now but for majority of my childhood, he was to be avoided. Also didn´t help that we couldn´t always pay our bills because he´d waste our budget on booze.

    Having to constantly go through painful surgeries due to my weak lungs, my mother having mental breakdowns from her handicap, having a drunk for a dad, yeah. I don´t ever want to experience that shit again.

    Stop assuming everyone wants to be a kid again. You´re just bragging about how wealthy and stable of a home life you had, and I´m sick of hearing it. Not all of us had a nice childhood to look back on. It is a honest to god nightmare of mine to wake up as an eight year old again, I can´t even imagine having to go through the hell that was my childhood a second time.