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11-Apr-2021
I’m just so hopelessly tired of it all
Well, I’m a 28 yo man and the title is just how I’m feeling lately. I’m a lawyer in south america, graduated with honours, work in an interesting (mostly) field and have a job. I’m exploited every day with overtime and no time for myself; I just cannot stand the thought of having to get a masters degree to progress in this “career” for which I’ll have to spend millions on my devaluated currency in order to get in Europe/U.S.; money is always short, I speak three languages fluently and learning russian and still I cannot find a job alternative.
The worst part is that I just don’t want to pursue this rat race anymore. I see where it goes. I’ve seen older friends working more and more hours for nothing. Just to move overseas to another shit job with more hours just to get away from south america’s constant crises. I’ve been in this job for almost two years.
I recently told my boss I was leaving in November (mainly to save some money) cause my mind can’t take any more. They were mad because I’m honestly and humbly, good at what I do. I honestly don’t know what I’m gonna do. I have battled with depression and anxiety my whole life and this lifestyle will kill me, I can foresee it. I love music and art, but I’m afraid it might be too late to change the course of my life and try something new. (For anyone curious I am a practitioner in international law, arbitration).
At this point the only thing I long for is an eight hour job that doesn’t leave me battered and emotionally demolished. I’ve had too much the last 5 or six years and it only gets worse. I have no weekends no vacations, and the field of law is plagued with a boomer mentality that is just not healthy. I just want to rest. I don’t even want à fulfilling job anymore; not even a great-pay job anymore. There is no end to this. I am not suicidal or anything close, just so disappointed. It makes me feel that all my life choices were wrong. I chose a field of work that it the peak of exploitation and everyone’s reaction seems to be “well that’s what it is”.
Do you feel 28 is too late in the game to get something better?
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