| Pena Ofurkody writes... |
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15-Apr-2021
My boyfriend has started seeking treatment for depression. Now I realise how much can depression and anxiety steal from a person.
He was always kind and loving, sometimes his thoughts were a bit dark and pessimistic, but he was almost never mean to me in any way. He had such amazing ideas and things he wanted to do but he never did, and he would always be very sad about not doing anything. Once he even said that if it wasn´t for me he would´ve killed himself by now which was very scary, it put a lot of pressure on me to make him happy but nothing worked after a certain point. Because of lockdown we´re in separate cities (about 1000 kilometres away, haven´t seen him in almost 10 months) and it was even harder for me to watch out for him and be there for him. This has changed recently when I encouraged him to seek therapy. He couldn´t find a therapist in his city but he managed to have a few sessions with a psychiatrist, who diagnosed him with depression and social anxiety. He is now taking medication for it, and oh my god what a change! He talks to people he always wanted to talk to but was too nervous to do so, he´s slowly starting to do the things he wanted to do, he smiles a lot more, he´s generally in a good mood, and he has a better outlook on life. It just makes me both happy and sad, happy that he can finally be free from his darker mental state, and sad that he suffered all those years with this. I wish he had done it sooner. I´m seeing a side of him I had only ever seen small hints of. Seeing him so happy and content just melts my heart... I never want to see him less happy than he is now ever again in my life.
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